Tuesday, May 04, 2010

ketumbit dan hari ibu?

mengisahkan seorang budak yg sering kena ketumbit. ntah mana silapnya, ketumbit akan tiba.. mata kiri, mata kanan, semua dah kena. sampai satu tahap ketumbit akan naik di hidung dan ada kalanya di atas kepala atau di punggung. lalu ibunya mengambil sepotong akar herba (yg MASYA ALLAH pahitnya), dikupas licin dan disumbatkan ke dalam seketul pisang. lalu ibu itu berkata: nak kuat tak? kalau nak, cuba telan pisang ni.. lantas saya menelan pisang itu ala seorg hero bagi membuktikan bahawa saya ini kuat! sejak itu, ketumbit tidak pernah lagi tumbuh di mana2 bahagian tubuh saya..
that was 20 years ago.. looking back, i was blessed to be an often-sick child. extra attention, extra care and plus being the eldest daughter after 4 sons were the best pangkat anyone could ever had. i was the baby in my family for 7 years before my other brother and a sister came along. it was fun watching these 2 growing up while me and my elder brothers were already have a lot in mind. a lot..
growing up in a family full of boys was never easy for me. it was hard! i was always labelled as 'the girl' and i don't really like that. whatever i do there will always be a limit and comparison. my brothers, being boys, they were always 'creative'. when they cook, they put udang and other seafood in meggi, they will be considered as 'pandai masak'. me, if i do the exact same thing, i will be considered as 'malas masak'. same thing goes to...errr almost everything i guess. limitations and expectations. but, for whatever reasons, i think growing up is the best term anyone could ever experienced. if u don't have a memorable childhood; its hard to determine wheater u are a grown person or not. and i consider my self as a grown woman.. proud? why not??
last weekend, it has been 5 years. we spend almost half an hour at the very usual spot. i lost my self 5 years ago and it felt like a part of me has been taken away. maybe i still do.. and this week will be the appreciation week. if she is still around, we will definitely celebrate it. i will celebrate it, with my own way.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers. especially to the ones who has multiple double trouble children!!