partly-soaking-wet

hujan lebat ptg tadi. agenda ke pasar ramadhan tetap diteruskan. cabaran kata kami. hujan dan angin kuat mengalahkan keupayaan payung. sebelah badan saya basah kuyup. sebelah lagi selamat. makanan berjaya dibeli. mengintai ke jalanraya, kereta sudah mula beratur pjg. sesak nmpk nya. mau atau tidak, itu terpaksa diharungi.
masa diambil hampir 2 jam utk pulang. rancangan utk melawat akiff ptg tadi terpaksa ditangguhkan. tiba rumah sudah hampir utk berbuka..

skrg saya sudah kenyang. rancangan menunaikan terawih tertunda lagi. liat nmpk nya saya tahun ini. esok, insyaAllah.

angin ramadhan menenangkan hati saya. udaranya berbeza. diselangi dgn sayup2 suara zikir dari masjid. rindu saya pada ramadhan bersama keluarga dan rakan2.

tempat saya yg baru

..seperti tajuk di atas

..

ulangtahun di bulan puasa

ulangtahun kali ini berbeza sedikit. jatuh pada bulan ramadhan.
tahun kebelakangan ini saya tidak kisah dgn sambutan harijadi. walaubagaimanapun, sambutan ini tetap meriah bersama rakan dan keluarga. mungkin satu hari nanti saya sendiri akan terlupa ttg hari lahir saya.
masih ingat masa kanak2, saya tidak sabar menunggu ketibaan 25 august. setiap tahun pasti ada majlis bersama rakan2 ataupun keluarga. namun hal ini semakin berkurangan apabila saya mula meniggalkan rumah bila usia mula menjengah 16 tahun.
kini usia saya sudah 28 tahun. ada yg kata masih muda, ada yg kata tidak lagi muda. umur itu subjektif pada yg menilai. mungkin kah umur sekadar angka?
pada angka 28 tahun ini, apakah yg telah saya lakukan? berbuku kah "cerita" saya? saya sendiri tidak berani menilai..
terima kasih semua atas ucapan, sumbangan dan galakan yg diberikan hingga hari ini.

moga tahun depan jika pjg umur, saya lebih bijak menilai hidup. insyaAllah..

spekulasi bulan puasa

saya tertanya mana hilangnya benda itu? dicuri atau disorokkan?

semasa sedang sibuk berpindah, barang berharga ofis telah hilang. mmg parah. tiada harga utk itu. dari renungan matanya saya tahu dia runsing. saya ingin bantu, tp tidak berjaya.

kita usaha lagi kawan, kita usaha.

demam

sensitif sungguh kalau demam kebelakangan ini. ramai demam, selsema... kesian.

rasa pedas

pain is pleasure; kata saya.

sbb tu saya tak suka pedas.

hujan dlm hati

sedang saya berjalan, hujan tiba2 turun. saya dan payung bukan lah kawan baik. saya lebih rela basah dari menjinjit sekaki payung.

smlm besar maknanya bagi saya. hujan apa dlm hati saya? mungkin hujan batu.

i did what i have to do.

regret?? no way.

i won't let it slip away.

katanya: kau genggam erat2. biar remuk dlm tgn dari bertabur atas jln.

apa plan minggu ni ya? hmmm....

hari pindah

utk dua hari ini kami akan mengaktifkan diri utk berpindah ofis. bukan jauh pun, kat sblh je. peluang ini saya gunakan utk mengemaskinikan barang2 saya yg kebanyakkan nya sudah patut menjadi sampah.

setelah satu tahun, lima bulan dan tiga hari, saya kini bakal mempunyai ruang sendiri. ruang saya skrg, hanya lah menumpang di tmpt mesin fotostat.

selamat pindah kawan2. tak sabar menanti hari ptg :)

nasihat hidup

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written."

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now.. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift

Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.

mencari yg hilang

pencarian kali ini bukan lah subjek yg hakiki. saya ingin mencari 'diri' saya yg berlalu dulu. watak siapakah saya semasa di usia remaja saya? masih sama kah saya sehingga kini? apakah agaknya dlm jiwa saya dulu?

masih saya ingat, semasa saya kanak2, saya pernah terfikir apakah yg bermain di fikiran org lain. adakah org lain juga punya suara dlm hati? waktu itu saya kuat berangan mungkin ;)

silent is easy.

duduk diam dan berfikir.

entah apa yg bermain di fikiran saya hari ini.

pakcik menang moto

yey! kami menang tempat ke-3

seronok tak hingat2.

saya ingat kami dah kalah.

tapi bila no.pendaftaran vivianne diumumkan, saya terkejut dan sgt gumbira..